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2012-02-13T01:19:00.001+08:00

我需要「原动力」让我好好的念书。不如，你吧。如果这次我能考到2.7以上，我们就交往吧。我无法确定自己的答案。但能不能让我们不要再顾虑太多了？至少，让我谈个轰轰烈烈的一段感情。一次就好。

不要在乎别人的眼光，不要理会那些规矩，不要理智的恋爱。就让我们勇敢的拥抱爱情。就算将来会分开，但至少让我们共同拥有这一段美好的回忆吧。

话说回来，你还喜欢我吗??

2012-02-12T22:18:00.003+08:00

我不想忘记「心痛」的感觉。因为我知道就算今天我忘了，又有谁能保证我明天不会再次想起？「心痛」就像人的骨头一样。人的骨头一断了，再恢复的之后就会更坚固。而「心痛」经历过了一次，一旦忘了就别再进过第二次，因为它会更痛。

每当我快忘记「心痛」的感觉，我就会强迫自己看着你和她的照片。痛，但至少我不会忘记「心痛」的感觉。明知道那是伤口，却还是会故意的触碰它，把块恢复的伤口再次斯烂。也许哪一天当我不会再痛，我就能正式的宣布「伤已经愈合了」。但那天，何时才会到来啊？

2012-02-01T01:13:00.002+08:00

一年又五个月了。我走了一年又五个月了，但却还是一直没有办法走出来。

每当天黑的时候，我就会不经意地想起你。不停的问自己是否曾经真正的爱过你。我搞不清楚答案，只知道心里好痛。遇见你之前，我从来都不知道自己可以那么的喜欢一个人。

我们之间早已超过了友情，却在快变成爱情时，逆转为最熟悉的陌生人。

我曾经以为自己很了解你的世界。最后才发现那是我自己编造的「你的世界」。也许我从来也没有真正的认识过你。

我不知道我还在奢望什么。但我知道在我还没走出来之前，要接收下一个「他」，好难。

我终于了解「失去」的意思。

一段刻苦铭心的爱，我们都爱过，伤过，也痛过。

2012-01-31T11:18:00.001+08:00

今年的生日愿望：第一个就是能够得到你的祝福。简单的一句＂生日快乐＂也好。但只有「你」才能帮我实现这个愿望。去年没办法实现，今年‥有可能吗??

第二和第三个愿望..呵呵，还没想到。等到我想好了，本小姐再告诉你吧！^__^

2012-01-30T15:04:00.003+08:00

强迫自己理智得面对眼前的困难，做出最痛的決定。

如果继续欺骗自己，兩個人只会在再度面對同樣的問題时，因为克服不了，而再痛一次。

痛，进过第一次，可以原谅。那是为了成长。

同样的痛，进过第二次，勉强还可以被原谅。那是因为傻。

同样的痛，进过第三次，不可以原谅。那未免也太过愚蠢了吧？

女人啊，我们不要再傻了好吗？不值的啊..

2012-01-27T02:36:00.000+08:00

还要多久才能走到你的身边。对的「你」请在对的「时间」，对的「地点」出现在我的眼前。我已经开始倒数和你相遇的那一秒，好期待。期待看到你的样子，期待认识你是谁，期待你的爱。

2012-01-27T01:35:00.001+08:00

历史必须再重演几遍，我才会走到对的人的身边..

2012-01-26T10:10:00.000+08:00

I'm bored!!! ROARrrr!!! Lesson is driving me to LaLaLand. And I realise I've yet to start on the 30 days challenge thingy. Procrastinating in process.. Haha.

I wanna blog. But I don't know what to talk about. Hur hur hur. Anyway, It's Thursday today!! uh.. like.. duh -__-" Sorry. I'm starting to get crappy again. Start save you from this agony and leave now. Byyyyyyiez~

2012-01-22T03:18:00.000+08:00

Spotted the 30 Days Challenge thingy. Ps. It's at the very bottom. Just scroll all the way down.. Yea. Before my MidPod. I'll prolly just die somewhere before I complete the 30 day thingy. I wonder if I'll even remember to do it everyday. Especially when CNY is coming. Hmm.. Forget it bah. I shall start after the CNY break. Hur hur hur. Procrastination. Muuuhahahaa.

Anyway. I shall start on today's post. Actually~ Today's post is not so much on what happened this week but more of.. What happened recently. My week started off with last Sunday's sermon. About L.I.F.E

Following up with the biggest shock of my life at the bus stop. Next was bus ride that the air-con broke down and we were asked to leave the bus just cause of one guy who couldn't wait. Following up next was lunching with Lynette, Elissa & Rachel at Pizza Hut, Jurong Point. Then we went to Ji De Chi for dessert.

Up next was the long week ahead. That wasn't the worst part.. The worst part was that.. It's flooded with presentationS!!! One after another. Haish. But it's over. Thank God ^__^ Of course, Monday to Friday was not only presentations. Had fun too.

Monday.. Can't remember anything special. Other than my mind being flooded with the shock by the bus stop thingy.. And.. AVS presentation. Hmm.. Nothing much. Tuesday.. Nothing much too. Wednesday.. Ended class early. Procrastinated to go HOP. wanted to just go home early and start working on my presentation slides. So to prevent myself from giving in to procrastination, I decided to go SAC to wait for Xuan and at the same time, chiong my PowerPoint slides for Thursday's presentation.

Yea. Of all place.. SAC. Hahas. But at least I know that no matter how hard I find excuses to skip HOP, Xuan will still have more reasons for me to go for HOP. This is prolly just the best method to prevent me from skipping HOP =) Also, it teaches me to rely on God's strength & not my own.

Then here comes Thursday.. Where I've TWO presentation. Two may not seems like it's ALOT. But the preperation time is like.. URGH!! So we did the first presentation, Econs. Did kinda.. well? Prolly. At least I was satisfied with it. Then following up with ECMR presentation. That was the killer of the day. All I could remember were all the negative feedbacks. Couldn't really process things after that. I was almost on the verge of cancelling mentoring session with YiTing. But I knew I mustn't.

So after presentation, I went to Haagen Dazz, Jurong point, to meet YiTing. And yea. I was there early *thumbs up* Decided to meditate on the word of God before she arrives. At the same time, also praying hard that the bad start of the day wouldn't affect my mentoring session with her.

When YiTing came, yea. we started our mentoring session, sharing about life, my past experiences, knowing more about the problems she's facing, praying together and the list goes on. Happen to dig out some of her unhappy memories. I feel cruel digging out people's past. Cause I hate it when people tries to dig out my past. But still.. who don't have a past? Moreover, I'm doing this to know her better & also to help her and guide her out of darkness. However, yea.. I can tell that she's not that ready to share about it YET. I'll continue praying for her, hoping that she'll open up and share the remaining part of the story with me when she's more comfortable.

YiTing, our God is a God that heals. He may take someone who is close to you away from you. But be sure that He has better plans in store for you. Do not be afraid. Do not hide from it. All the more, do not run away from it. Face it bravely cause God created you to be a princess warrior filled with bravery and not timidity. Know that I'm always here for you, so is every Zoe member and God. The world may forsake you, but never will your Heavenly Daddy. If God is for you, who can be against you?

Yeap. We had a funderful time together. Met up with Jeraldine after my mentoring session with YiTing and her day of work. Went home together. Yeah!! Yew Tee Kias! :D

On the way home, we were discussing about what to do for Rachel & Sheryl for their birthday this Saturday. Didn't came up with any conclusion by the time we reached Yew Tee.. Haha. So we decided to go home and think about it and text each other if ever we've thought of any ideas. I decided to get my fringe cut as CNY is round the corner. Guess what. The hair cut was $18!! And i was like.. $18 just to cut my FRINGE?! So I decided to get the aunty to trim my hair too. Haha. That makes my $18 much more worth it ^__^

Reached home.. Kinda late.. Like.. 7 plus? Collapse in bed. Still thinking about the failed presentation in the day. Decided to have a good nap and forget all the unhappiness when I wake up for dinner. So I went zzz in my beloved LaLaLand :)

Woke up, with thousand and one messages. Lol. Read & replied all. Went Facebook, read all notification. Saw a Facebook chat message, shocked to see the person's name. As in.. shock to see that the person PM me. Read through. Threw my phone aside and went to eat. Haha. Not that I'm angry or what. But I guess I was just too tired to think of anything. I was suppose to wake up and leave all the unhappiness behind in LaLaLand~ and when I saw the message, I was like .. Let me have my dinner and store up energy before I face this issue. Haha.

Yea. My mind was only on food. After dinner, whatever that was left unsolved still has to be solved. Went back to "retrieve" my phone. Re-read the message. Felt hilarious, stupid, apologetic, angry & all sort of mixed feelings. In short, I felt lost. Lost in the sense where I didn't know how should I even be feeling.

First thought that came to my mind: I thought we were suppose to cut off all contact. Lol. Second thought: So what sort of reply are you expecting from me? Am I even suppose to reply? Third thought: But I really didn't mean to avoid you and scream at your face when I bump into you at the bus stop on Sunday.

Honestly, I didn't know what was going through my brain at that point of time. That scream was like a auto reaction that I didn't even know I screamed until Rachel, Lynette & Elissa told me about it. I've no idea if I was to share this with anyone but I told Xuan about it. I didn't know what to do with that message. WhatsApp-ed Xuan, got some advice and I'm still thinking about it. Haiz..

Whatever it is, Thursday was like a GG day. But my God is still greater than all my troubles/problems. Oh! I forgot to mention something!! I met Kah Fai while I was on my way home after the hair cut. When you bump into him at Yew Tee, it just means that he was there to visit Melissa. Haha. So I was like, "You two still together?!" haha. Nah. I was just being sarcastic to Kah Fai. He is a good guy and i'm sure he has always been a good boyfriend to Melissa.

At times, I'm really envious of the two of them. Not that Kah Fai is not my boyfriend.. LOL! But it's the chemistry between this couple. Yeap. Wait till I find my Mr. Right. Taahahaaha!!

Okay. My Thursday seems very Roller Coaster. Hur hur hur. As for Friday, Yes!! TGIF! Muuuuuuahahaha!! It's prolly the only day I look forward to every week. Haha. Had lessons in the day. Then went shopping in town with Edwina Poh!! Yea! My bestfriend in poly ^__^

We alighted at Lucky Plaza. Then we walked to Takashimaya. From there, we walked to Wistma Atrium. Then to ION. Found a pair of heels at TopShop. Love it to the max. But hated the price. It's like.. $169!! Haha. So we moved on to another shop. Found another pair of heels. Much cheaper, &89.90 but still.. Kinda expensive and don't have my size. The size they have was a size bigger than my size. So we decided to go walk around first.

Landed up in Pedro. Had my eyes on one pair of heels, tried it on, but it didn't look good on me. So we sat there a while to rest our legs. Haha. Then something caught my attention. The heels next to the one I tried was like.. $34.40. And I was like.. O___O!!! $34.40 heels at Pedro?! And it's the kind of heels I'll love. So I got it, tried it on, and it fits. Pulled out my phone, called my mum and she said "Okay!" Muuuuuhahah!! But have to stick something at the bottom which I don't know what was it. But it's to prevent me from slipping. And that thingy cost $10.90 lol. So actually that pair of heels cost $45.30 but still.. As compared to $169. Hur hur hur. If given a choice, I would have took the $169 heels but.. it's okay. They're all the same. Meant to be worn on my feet ^__^

Then here's Saturday.. Went to DI, had some encounter. Celebrated sheryl and Rachel's birthday. Then.. Yea. Busy day. Yawnz >_<

2012-01-18T01:17:00.000+08:00

人类是某种奇怪的动物。总是喜欢把自己搞得遍体鳞伤，甚至伤亡，才肯放手。明明就是自己的错，却还是得搞到像是全世界欠了自己什么似的。奇怪。

2012-01-17T02:29:00.000+08:00

不想再接触爱情，因为我开始会害怕了。害怕我所谓的“爱”只是一场错觉..爱情的残酷总是让人无可奈何，好无奈。

2012-01-13T04:23:00.000+08:00

Hello peeps!! I'm like.. Still awake at this hour. It's 3:35AM!! Can't get to sleep now cause I KO-ed on my bed the moment I got home. So I "nap" for like.. an hour.. and it kept me awake till now.. ROARrrr!!

Anyway, how was your day? Mine was like.. Hmm.. Like that lo. School, lectures, studies, bored. Had mentoring session with Xuan after school though. I guess that was the only thing that kept me alive for today.

One thing I've been reflecting about is.. What God has been speaking to me throughout 2011. From 1st Jan 2011 till 31st Dec 2011, I've always thought God was telling/teaching to place my "Trust" & "Faith" in Him. But as I think back now, I think on top of placing my Trust & Faith in Him, I need to learn how to let go of things that wouldn't matter for eternity, things that does not belong to me, things that I've yet to surrender to God.

Things that do not matter for eternity would be things like.. Money, Facebook, Twitter, Youtube, etc. Shall not mention Blogger since I'm on it now. Lol.

Things that does not belong to me would be like.. Certain relationships? Yea. It cost something when we choose to serve Him.

Things that I've yet to surrender to God.. Probably Bao Bei. Some bits and pieces of my life. Times where I choose to be rebellious and make decisions without seeking Him, hoping at the end of the day that nothing will go wrong.

Letting go every small part of my earthly self costs something out of me. And sometimes, I choose to be stubborn and cling on to these things. Father, guide me as I seek you.

I'm not sure if I'm overly sensitive or what, but there are really times where I felt as though I'm falling back to the days where "God, you're only allowed to invade my Saturdays. The rest of the days are mine". But thank God, I'm sensitive when such things are approaching and I have to constantly remind myself to surrender my all to Him.

Here and there, there are really many incidents where I was on the verge of giving up. Honestly, I don't know what was the power that kept me running. But above all, I know God was with me through it all.

It's so miraculous how I came to know God. How He guided me out of darkness, catching me when I'm falling, chasing me when I'm running away, Loving me when I hated Him. The love of the Father can never be comprehended by just a blogpost or a speech. You've got to experience it yourself. Don't ask how would you know if it's the love of God. Cause when you experience it, you'll know "That's the love of my God".

I remember when I first hear the song "Who Am I", He moved. That's when I realise: My God is a living God who move not only on Saturday Encounters but He move every single moment. Even during my personal time. When I'm just looking for a new song to listen to and stuff. And He moved when I first heard the song "Who Am I"

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.

Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.

Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again

Who am I?
That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am.
But because what of youve done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.

Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.

For those who have yet to have that Godly encounter, I'll pray for you. I'll pray that you'll really have that desire to want to have that same Godly Encounter I had. Cause He said in His word that He will show up to those who really desires Him.

It was never once because of us. It was because of Him. That cross. Those hands, those feet. That Guy, who choose to hang himself up that tree. Jesus, it was all because of You. Thank you Father.

2012-01-10T12:38:00.001+08:00

又有谁会发现你曾出现在我的世界里..

不喜欢

2012-01-09T02:59:00.001+08:00

我讨厌有抱负的的感觉。仿佛我的一切必需放在阳光底下，让认识我的每一个人，用着放大镜看我的世界。不喜欢。

安静了 (Cover)

2012-01-02T19:35:00.002+08:00

妈妈，爱一个人不一定要拥有他。爱一个人是要他开心，快乐，幸福。我相信总有一天你也会找到那个真正懂得珍惜你，爱护你，保护你的那个男人。Lee Xiao Hui，加油咯!

2012-01-01T23:09:00.001+08:00

有时候，我会觉得自己好强。并不是因为我做了什么破世界纪录的事，而是因为我成功渡过一个没有你的2011。很神气吧？呵呵。2012，因该又会是另一个没有你的一年吧？

很多人常常问我“为什么你没有男朋友？”。呵。我也曾经问过自己啊..但每次在进入一段感情之前，我都会问自己“你有这个资格吗？”

我常觉得自己不够好，不够成熟，不够完美。我不想为了谈恋爱而谈。但人，偶尔也会有情不自禁的时候啊。最后为了「爱」搞得自己遍体鳞伤。好不值得。

如今我依然不觉得自己有谈恋爱的资格。也许等到那一天，真的有那个白马王子出现。也许只有那个他才能说服自己，我是有资格被疼爱的。但那天是哪一天，真是猜不透啊..

2011

2011-12-31T23:42:00.001+08:00

2011 就即将结束了。回顾这一年里发生的许多奇迹般的点点滴滴的事，好神奇啊..

这一年里，我进过了无数的考验，从中我学会了「放下」。放下亲人，放下爱情，放下烦恼。对我来说，2011充满了无数的喜怒哀乐，无奈和惊喜的事。遇见了许多难题，心惊胆战地度过一个又一个难关。我的2011年，活得如此轰轰烈烈，如今却即将与它道别。虽然有那么一点点不设，但我相信2012 会更精彩。

2012，本小姐要来了哦!!

20111014-蘋果新聞-言承旭笑納林志玲戀愛ing

2011-12-27T05:32:00.002+08:00

Wooooohoo!!!

我希望言承旭可以追回林志玲!!

Muuuhahahha :D *jump jump*

2011-12-26T23:21:00.001+08:00

从前的你会牵就我每一个无理取闹的小细节。就算是翻开你的背包，你也会忍。今天的我，早已失去从前的你。

想念，却只能留在心里。

2011-12-24T07:09:00.000+08:00

昨晚，我问自己曾经是否有真心的爱过你。结果害得自己痛哭一场。我们之间，莫名其妙的开始，又莫名其妙的结束。还记得三个月前，我无意中看到你一年前发来的短讯。当时我慌了。我记得很清楚，那晚我差点疯掉了。老实说，一直到现在，我还是猜不透那封简讯的来源。我不知道我发了什么简讯给你。更不知道你为什么要发那封简讯给我。无论如何，我们结束了。

我难过得并不是因为无法和你一起走到最后，而是因为我被迫退出这个游戏。犯人被判刑时，法官也会说明理由。但你对我判下的死刑的理由，不成立。就因为那几封不知从哪冒出来的简讯。难过是因为不甘心。不甘心自己无缘无故被踢出游戏。不甘心自己糊里糊涂被判死刑。

当一个人在最痛的时候说“不痛”,
那是因为她已经痛到麻痹了。
她已经忘记原来那种感觉叫做“痛”。
而我，不痛了。

2011-12-13T04:06:00.001+08:00

我听得到你的心，却听不到你的真心。
我活在你的世界，你却不在你的世界。
我看得到你的眼睛，你的眼晴却不在我的身上。
我就站在你的身边，你却在她身边。
我闻得到你的香水味，却不是你的香水味。
那么多的“我”，却那么多的“你却”。
无奈。

2011-11-27T22:59:00.001+08:00

Don't ask me where am I. I'm in singapore.
Don't ask me what am I doing. I'm talking to you.
Don't ask me what will I be doing. I'll be breathing.

五月天突然好想你 MV

2011-11-25T02:37:00.000+08:00

I don't see why am I updated about your every action on Facebook. It just reminds me of 《突然好想你》by MayDay 五月天

最怕突然，听到你的消息。

能不能

2011-11-22T13:28:00.001+08:00

地球又转了一圈，我们却还在原地。迷迷糊糊的我却不知道我们之间发生了很么事。

能不能让地球逆转一圈，让我们回到一年前误会开始的原地，让我门再给彼此最后一次机会把误会解开。能不能让我们从头开始？

能不能..

2011-11-18T01:50:00.000+08:00

It's been more than a year. Yet these memories are still kept close to my heart. What about you?

In the past, you'll always give in to me no matter how ridiculous my requests are. Even if it means doing something you really don't feel like doing.

I was on the train today. Saw a dad carrying his daughter so that she can sit on his lap. I smiled. Uncontrollably. And dad, I miss you. This coming Christmas is going to be the 5th Christmas we've missed spending together. Dad, I miss you. I really do.

是非

2011-10-01T22:17:00.001+08:00

爱情/感情世界里的是非对错，
始终还是个罗生门。
是是非非，总是猜不透。

2011-09-27T16:23:00.001+08:00

Stop asking me what would I do if time could be rewinded. It's not like as if it's gonna happen.

But if time could really be rewinded, I'll do it the same way, all over again. Cause it's cause of these decisions that caused these outcomes which has allowed me to learn & grow :]

Look on the brighter side people..

相见恨晚 - 彭佳慧

2011-09-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

Kinda like this song =]

2011-09-16T12:17:00.000+08:00

I will be still and know that you are God.

2011-09-15T02:29:00.000+08:00

Was listening to some JJ songs when I've suddenly dived into emo-ness :( What's wrong with me man~ But still, I thank God for this time of emo-ness.

如果人天天都活得快快乐乐，无忧无虑，总有一天，我们都会忘记快乐的含义。偶尔伤心一下、难过一下，也会好一些。这样一来，当我们碰到快乐的事，就会更珍惜它。多姿多彩的生活是一个充满酸甜苦辣，喜怒哀乐的生活。如果每天都过得无忧无虑，平平淡淡的生活，那生命不就很无趣吗？

偶尔来一点酸甜苦辣，生活才会多姿多彩，才会活得更有意义。让我们为这些伤心难过微笑吧 =]

2011-09-01T06:10:00.001+08:00

I think I'm so used to sleeping 6 hours a day that after dozing off for 6 hours on the sofa, I got up automatically and couldn't get back to bed now. Or was it just the effect of the 3-in-1 ice coffee?? :(

2011-08-25T04:28:00.000+08:00

Outch! Kenna caught red handed >0< no la.. I was just listening to music mah.. Background music mah.. Got wrong meh =[ Boss super fierce sia..

2011-08-24T21:52:00.000+08:00

刚刚学会走路的小孩，迫不及待想快点长大，学会独立，飞离父母的手掌心。

长大了的我，恨不得变回从前那个什么都不知道的婴儿，重回父母的怀抱里。只想和父母一起牵手过马路，像一个永远也长不大的小孩，死赖在他们的怀里。

2011-08-21T01:10:00.001+08:00

Hey! I've got something to share!! I know boss did ask me to stop print screening but I really want to share this with you people =]

I don't know how will you feel after reading our conversation but honestly.. I was shocked by her response. Personally when someone tell me that he/she will choose to believe whatever I say, I'll be very shock and shock to the extend where I'll lose the courage to not tell the truth to that person.

Most importantly is cause I treasure that trust and I'm not at all willing to betray that trust. As I've said before: "You can choose not to believe what I say, but never should you doubt me."

Hence I'll choose to be honest with anyone who is willing to trust/believe in whatever I say. Cause I really treasure it loads.

If you can recall, I posted this on Facebook on Thursday: "You don't have to give a long speech to convince a person. All it takes is just that key word." and that key word that caused me to choose to be honest is "Authenticity".

Nevertheless, though I choose to be honest with boss, I like the last sentence: "好想翻墙，然后突然消失" Taaahaaha!! Honestly I think xuan is very unpredictable. She can talk to you about a topic and suddenly hit you with a bomb. And it's really a bomb that will cause you to lose the ability to escape.

But I really like that shock feeling. It really cause me to think deep and face the truth that I've tried to escape for years. Haish.. But smiles :]

2011-08-21T00:14:00.001+08:00

It's been ages since the last time I posted something in Chinese. As in.. The past few blog posts are majority in English and I'm so not used to that.. Haish.. Actually I also don't know what post.

It's just the weird and awkward feeling that caused me to be so speechless at times..

2011-08-20T04:05:00.000+08:00

Wooosh! This is my first ever design. Can't believe it. I never knew that I would actually even think of designing. You know what.. When Eunice first announced that there's this DI badge designing competition thingy, I was so not interested in it. Never have I thought of designing a badge. At the back of my mind I was thinking: Haiya.. Let those who can really design do the job.

And.. What am I doing now sia!!! PS: this post is suppose to be so Singlish. Taaaahha.

Anyway.. What I really want to say is that.. Many times we might really think that things are beyond our ability. But when the inspiration strikes, trust me.. Things will turn around and make a 180 degree change! Awesome. But right.. Now there's another problem.. For this badge designing competition thingy right.. I've to submit it in Photoshop format!!! Sianz sia!! Haiz.. Think I shall try it out on Photoshop some other day bah.. Let me get through my POM and Law test first >_<

Anyway.. The inspiration of this design all started out with my reflection journal for last Saturday's DI sermon (It's up on DI blog already! http://di-perspectives.blogspot.com). Initially while I was writing it, I was also thinking.. Huh? Reflection ar.. Sianz.. Don't know what to write..

But as I was thinking of what to write, I asked for our Father to speak to me and just simply use me. Then I started writing about our first love with Him, rededicating out lives to Him once more and stuff like that.. Then suddenly something just brought me the thought of designing the DI badge. Is just like a call, calling me to do the impossible!

So I possibly did the impossible, which is to complete the reflection journal. Then after that I went on to search for inspiration to design this DI badge. And it started off with "First Love". So I knew I'll design something with a heart. But just a heart itself is kind of plain and meaningless.

Then I went on searching for more inspiration by listening to songs and stuff. And it just suddenly struck me to listen to DI originated songs. And funny thing is other than the song "Our God is Love" that is written by Eugene, all the other DI originated songs are by Andy. Taaahaha. Oh! Why DI originated songs? Cause it's a DI Originated badge. Haha.

Anyway.. So I went to listen to those songs. When I was listening to Author of Life, there's this sentence, "Writing His story in mine" caught hold of my attention. So I decided to design something like a book kinda thing.. Guess what's the next question..

How do I combine a book together with a heart?! Taaahaha!! So initially I wanted to draw a book and a heart on the left page of the book and kinda stuff.. If you get what I was talking about..

However as I was drawing the book.. I think is partially cause of my lousy drawing, it actually turned out to be like a heart!! Taaahahaha!!! Then the sudden 'TING!' rang in my head and I was like... RIGHT!!! AWESOME. Haha.

Next! Since it's "Writing" so there should be a pen/pencil. I choose pencil cause it feels more... Hmm.. Easy to draw is one thing.. Taaaahaha!! But pencil is like.. It feels more personal. Pen will feel more mature kind of thingy and it makes me feel very distant. So yepz! I choose pencil.

Lastly.. I was thinking.. If a DI badge is without the word DI or Destiny Impact,it wouldn't be a DI badge anymore. Then here comes the last question.. Where should I place the word Destiny Impact & how am I gonna do that? So I decided to write it as the border. but if it's just Destiny.Impact, it will be very weird. And that's where God Chaser, Heart Joiner & Light Giver comes in!

Then.. Taaaada!! This is my DI badge design. Honestly, it sounded as if I took the whole day designing it. but the fact is.. I took less than an hour. What I really want to say is that.. Not to boast about my designing ability but to tell everyone out there who are reading this post.. Don't give up before trying. Ask for inspiration. And if He really have a desire for you to do something, He'll give you the inspiration you need.

Honestly to me, it doesn't matter if my design is chosen to be the official DI badge design or not. What matters the most to me is that our Father have proven to me that what I used to think that was the impossible was made possible cause I trusted in Him.

I want you to believe: If you're willing to place your trust in Him, time will reveal that He is a living God and He'll use you, in His very own special & unique ways =]

你要的不是我 Cover

2011-08-20T00:16:00.000+08:00

I really like this cover. My singing may not be that fantastic but I really like the emotion of this song. It's definitely different for JJ's version, of course his is nicer cause he's the original singer, but I did this song cover when I was having quite a bad flu plus block nose.

But I think it's really cool how I manage to focus on the emotional part than my current situation back then. Hmm.. You need not agree with me but I think this is one of the best cover I've done so far. Still trying to do more impact-ful and meaningful covers.

Maybe for the time being I'll not do covers.. Wanna concentrate on my studies first. Will be doing my covers soon! Maybe during the September semester break?? A good time for me to chill out ^_^ AND MY KTV (KBOX)!!! Oh man.. I've been craving for Kbox for a super long time!! It's definitely my motivation to faster study and get through this exam period and the Singing World is ready to welcome me in!!! MUUUHAHAAHHAHAHA!!!!

Hope ya enjoy my cover =]

2011-08-19T14:57:00.002+08:00

Found something cool on Facebook!!

Why a man needs a wife ?
Because :
W --- Washing
I --- Ironing
F --- Food
E --- Entertainment

Why a woman needs a husband ?
Because :
H --- Housing
U --- Understanding
S --- Sharing
B --- Buying
A --- and
N --- Never
D --- Demanding

2011-08-19T06:04:00.000+08:00

没有期待，就没有失望。
没有爱，就不会受伤。
没有心，就不会痛 =]

2011-08-18T01:36:00.000+08:00

I question: Why should I love?
The answer was: Cause God loved me 1st so that I can love others.

I ask: Why am I loved?
The answer was: Cause I'm made to be loved by God.

I doubt: Am I really worth to be loved?
The answer was: Yes.

2011-08-17T01:33:00.003+08:00

我常在想，喜欢一个人是一个什么样的感觉？这不是在你跟我告白之后才想的问题。我从以前就一直有在想。但我觉得我的想法有渐渐的在改变。

以前我会觉得喜欢一个人就是爱。一定要拥有他。但现在我觉得喜欢一个人并不表示你一定要拥有他。比如说．．如果今天我喜欢一个人，我会告诉他“我喜欢你”。但那种喜欢不是爱情的喜欢，是友情的喜欢。

我喜欢你不是因为你买什么东东给我，或哄我开心。我喜欢你就因为很单纯的，你就是你。毕竟，“喜欢”跟“爱”是不一样的。就像“不能”跟“不肯”也是不一样的。

我并不期望每个人跟我的想法都一样。你可以不认同我的看法，但请你不要拥有想改变我的看法的想法，因为那始终还是我个人的看法。哎哟！绕口令哦．．　呵呵！

震撼全人類的視頻，看完這個你們有什感受.flv

2011-08-16T16:26:00.001+08:00

Don't keep thinking that you're in the worst situation. There are many more people who are in worse situation as compared to you, it's just that you've yet to hear about their stories.

So if you're feeling down, lost or despair, Stand up! Look up! and SMILE!! Tomorrow will always be a better day :]

2011-08-15T04:29:00.004+08:00

2002年，我认识了一个他。2005年，交往了。2006年，我们分了。不知道是因为年纪还小，还是因为什么，但我知道彼此相爱过。

2007年，另一个你跟我告白。不好意思拒绝你的我，决定给你机会，让你追求我。但最后，还是分了。那一段感情，我选择爱我的人，但失败了。

2010年，因为一场课堂上的小故事，把我和另一个你挂上了“老公” “老婆”的称号。不知不觉，莫名其妙的爱上那个你。不知道哪来的勇气，我跟你告白了。也许当时的你以为我在跟你开玩笑，但请听我说：我是认真的。如今，我们不是情侣，也不是朋友。那一次，我选择了我爱的人。但终究也失败了。

3段感情，我选择了我爱的人，爱我的人，和彼此相爱的人，却统统失败了。我不知道前两次的感情算不算，但至少我知道最后一段让我很痛。而这种痛使我渐渐开始害怕爱情。不是不想爱，是不敢。

2011年，另一个你跟我告白了。我无法回应你。因为我害怕我的选择是错的。我害怕这个选择会伤害到你。我问过自己：你凭什么被爱？

如今我还没找到答案。但我想说的是：第3段感情的伤害太深，造成了阴影。

时间。我真的需要时间。很多很多时间。真的。

我需要的时间很难预测。可能下一秒我就想通了。可能我需要一年，两年，十年，二十年，或是一辈子..你真的能等吗？也许这辈子，我只能期待爱情，但永远也不能拥有拥抱爱情的勇气。

爱情恐惧症，真的好可怕..

我无法承诺什么。无法百分之百的答应你，将来一定会跟你在一起。你还会要等吗？

Loves.wmv

2011-08-12T02:37:00.001+08:00

This is the video I've always wanted to share. Yep. It's up on Facebook as well as Youtube. And it's specially for Boss, obvious right? Haha.

Hmm.. This video is to simply encourage her la.. Cause initially when boss told me on.. tues (26 July) that she's not able to meet me cause her grandpa passed away, I was like.. orh. And didn't really take the matter to heart.

But on Saturday, when I met Jeraldine and the other DI people at clementi, I heard from them that boss didn't go for DI. Err.. I wasn't there too cause of some school activities. Anyway! When I heard about it I was like.. "okay~ That's so Xuan's Style" and as I was on the train, travelling home, God just set a question in my heart: Do you have compassion for the lost? But then again, I thought about it for a while and that's it.

Then comes Sunday. During Sunday service, they were talking about lost souls, the souls that were gonna perish to hell. As I was listening to the message, it really spoke a lot to me. During ministry time, as we were singing "We will run to the altar, and catch the fire, to stand in the gap between the living and the dead" and suddenly, I opened my eyes and my eyes were set on boss. I don't know why but it was a total sudden.

Seconds later, I watch her walk out of the auditorium. That very moment, I heard a voice telling me, "Encourage". I asked why? There's so many people in the auditorium, but why me? And flashbacks came, bringing me back to those days when I felt lost, didn't know what to do, needed someone to talk to, someone texted me this: No judgement, just a pair of listening ears.

Hey. The fact that someone is willing to listening to you without any judgement.. That's totally awesome kae. So I was thinking.. Xuan was there when we needed encouragement so this time round, let's change roles!

When I got home, I thought about what can we do.. And the thought of making a video came. I struggled cause making a video can be annoying and difficult especially when you don't have the inspiration to. Which I really don't have at that point of time. But my following action was kind of suicidal as I texted every DI impactors to send me their word of encouragement.

Reason being why it was suicidal, cause I told them I'll be making a video which will be played on that coming Saturday and that gave me no excuse to retreat. And before I knew it, I've got a huge work pile on hand. IT project, law tutorial, EMC trail presentation, Gen Ed Presentation, POM tutorial and EMD Presentation!!! And I was like.. OH MAN!!!!!

Worst part of all, though I start preparing the video since Monday, by gathering pictures & video from Facebook, I did not have a song in mind!!! Was thinking of "You raise me up" but we used that for her Birthday and I was like... Grrr.. Cause I don't listen to english songs and playing a chinese song in DI is... WEIRD!

I searched for songs.. Listened to countless of them but none of them gave me the "right feeling". UNTIL!! On Tuesday.. Midnight.. Or rather early Wednesday morning, as I was chatting with Celine on Facebook, she suggested Hero. I went to yotube, searched for the song. When the intro came in.. even before Mariah Carey started singing, I was like.. THIS IS IT!

And taaaada!! The video is out. Oh! I missed out something funny.. I was texting Rachel, telling her that I'll be doing a video for Xuan and I asked her, "You want it to be a happy one, encouraging one or Emo one?? Haha. I think it will be very bad if we do an Emo one. Haha" and guess what Rachel reply.. She said, "Of course encouraging!!" Yes! She exclamation mark me!!! Haha. But I had a good laugh when I received her reply. It was so funny. Haha. Well.. at least to me, it is funny..

Anyway.. Nothing much to talk about the process of the making of the video. Just like all other video, you'll just have to keep playing and pausing and playing the same part over and over again. And after the video was done, I told myself I'm not gonna listen to Hero for at least the next 2 weeks.. Haha. It's so annoying.. But not as bad as You Raise Me Up.. That song repeated the chorus x number of times sia!!

So right.. What I want to say is.. Video making isn't that easy so next time you watch a video, feel it with your heart. And if ever given a choice, try.. As far as possible to keep away from Video Editing. Especially when you've lack of the inspiration to make one. Haha!!

That's all for today and I've got to get moving with my EMC slides! My actual presentation is tomorrow.. Or rather later.. See ya!!

2011-08-12T00:40:00.001+08:00

Hiie.. I'm back again. hmm.. not ready to talk about the video yet but i've got something to share with those who wants to loose weight. Here it is:

早餐吃得好；
午餐吃得饱；
晚餐吃得少
不要挨饿。因为人，都要吃饭! :]

。

2011-08-08T00:50:00.000+08:00

Woah! It's been.. 1 week plus since the last time I posted. Haha. Actually.. I don't know what to say. I was about to sleep when I suddenly decided to make a visit here and I thought I should just update it to inform you.. MY BLOG ISN'T DEAD!! Haha. Have yet to find any inspiration to write something touchy or inspiriting.. Or rather.. I don't really have the time now cause I've got to go to bed soon. "Soon and very soon, my King is coming.."

Okay. Sorry. That was totally random. Haha. I'll share with you my experience on making a video for someone special whom I was commanded by Him to encourage. But NOT NOW!! Maybe later in the day when I'm having my lunch break or something.. Now it's time to go to bed. I'm starting to get excited to share about the video how impossibly it was to complete it on time but yet it was made possible and also the inspiration I got to make it!

Anyway.. It's really time to go to bed. So... Gotta GO!!! See ya!! ^_^ nite nite people =]

2011-07-31T22:38:00.006+08:00

距离二零一一年，七月二十一号，已经过了十天。在这十天里，我想了很多。周围的突发事件也让我学习了许多。在这十天里，我觉得自己成熟了，长大了不少。

我想短时间内，我还没做好进入一段感情的准备。对于感情，谁不会有期待？我当然很想尽快享受被另一半呵护的感觉。但我想...我还没做好可能会被另一半伤害的感觉吧。更何况，我无法确认你会是我一直以来，正在寻找的那一半。

在我还没确认自己不会后悔之前，我不想做决定。我依然会把你当哥哥看。我相信如果我们是命中注定要相爱，就算是等一辈子，就算是十一年的差距，就算有再多的反对，我们终究还是会在一起。现在我最想做的事是把心思放在学业上。未来的路还很漫长，我相信这一切只是考验的开始。

现在的我只想把一切的一切交给上帝。我想再次享受他的奇迹。如果你也认同，发个简讯给我吧。

2011-07-27T12:16:00.003+08:00

最近的心情好混乱。心情迟迟无法平复。感觉快被窒息了。老实说，当你告诉我你已经喜欢我四年，我真的吓到了。我真的不知道该怎么回应。

从你说有话要跟我说的那一天开始，我前前后后想了近一百个不同的可能话题。但没有任何一个是你会跟我告白。也许是因为我一直把你当哥哥看吧。给我时间。让我再仔细反省。我还在惊吓中。需要时间证明自己没有在做梦。我需要时间好好想一想，好好确认自己的感受。

2011-07-21T23:57:00.001+08:00

活了十七年，五个月又零一天，第一次有人如此正面的向我告白。

你的真心，我听到了。不必紧张。让一切顺其自然。把一切的一切都交给上帝吧。

如果这是他的安排，即使是十一年的差距，他也会弥补这一切的距离。

2011-07-21T04:27:00.001+08:00

找回最原始的自己。那个还没认识你，爱上你，受过伤的自己。好怀念。真的。

我知道自己再也无法回到以前那个无忧无虑，毫无伤痛的自己。但此时此刻，我想对自己说“加油”。即使自己再也无法回到你身边，被怀疑，对你的真心永远都不会有任何改变。

就算心真的碎了，那又怎样？他终究还是有属于你的那个特殊位置。谁叫你是你?

专属你的福利。

2011-07-19T10:54:00.001+08:00

因为害怕失去，所以不敢接受。人总需要那份勇气去接受真正属于自己的那份感情。而勇气并不是天生的，它是每一天，一点一滴累积起来的。

2011-07-12T00:09:00.002+08:00

我爱过，伤过，哭过，恨过，但如今我放下了，原谅了。暂时还没有想谈恋爱的冲动。也许是因为害怕再次受伤，再次失去。

2011-07-01T20:09:00.001+08:00

如果这是你报复我的手段，我接受。你开心就好。

2011-06-28T13:34:00.001+08:00

一个巴掌宣告了我们的结局。

2011-06-18T21:16:00.000+08:00

I don't get why is everyone criticizing 陳銘章導演? Just because of the fire incident? But how can people deny that he is a good director? He had filmed so many nice shows that are like.. topping the charts. From "MVP情人" to "王子變青蛙" to "愛情魔髮師" to "放羊的星星" to "命中注定我愛你" to "我在1949等你" and now to "醉後決定愛上你". Aren't all these shows the shows that we had and are enjoying watching them now?? We can blame him for his carelessness but we can't deny his talent right?? When "放羊的星星" was out, it topped the chart INSTANTLY. Now, "醉後決定愛上你" is topping the chart every week. Lastly, "命中注定我愛你" is still the record holder of all dramas. So how can you say that he is not a good director just cause of 1 incident？

2011-06-16T03:15:00.000+08:00

一年前的今天，我很幸福。一年后的今天，你幸福吗？

We used to be so sweet. What about now? Where are you? Why did i even choose to let go?

2011-05-31T23:56:00.000+08:00

今天，下雨了。我坐在巴士站等巴士。突然想起你。一年前，天空下着雨。我为你撑伞。伞打到你的头，你怪我矮，我怪你高。180公分的你还记得吗？后来，换你为我撑伞。我们肩并着肩一起走进校园。老师还误以为我们真的在一起。

老实说，我真的好希望我们是真的，真的在一起。我还记得一年前的今天，全校最轰动的绯闻就是我和你了。如果当初我们真的在一起了，今天的我们又会是如何？

想着想着，雨停了。我发现自己不知不觉开始对自己微笑。因为有和你在一起的回忆，所以我觉得很快乐，觉得自己能笑，觉得自己很幸福。180的你，今天快乐吗？

2011-05-31T18:30:00.000+08:00

一句“我以为”就能够让你轻而易举的以“无辜犯罪”的虚伪理由逃离一切的惩罚。留下的，只有狼狈的我。你真行啊 =]

我的心真的受伤了 Cover

2011-05-28T21:09:00.000+08:00

我的心真的受伤了。你听到了吗?

2011-05-28T03:24:00.001+08:00

How could I ever forget that pair of eyes I've kept my eyes on for more than 2 months? It's that look of yours that I'll never get to see again. Yet it's imprinted in my memory.

I heard people telling me "JX say he hates you" Hahas. At least you did bother to say "I Hate You" this proves that you still remember about my existence. Isn't it? =]

I question myself, who are you to influence me so much, to the extend where I would bother to do a cover for you. Who are you to cause me to be emotional tonight? I guess this did prove that I've yet to forget about you. Tonight, I did a cover, for you. And you alone. Whether you did hear it or not, that's another story, it doesn't matter.

We have 98 mutual friends on Facebook. Yet you're not on my friend list. Joke.

2011-05-24T16:56:00.001+08:00

部落各的URL永不改变。因为我知道你在看，在读，我对你的思念。

2011-05-24T02:24:00.000+08:00

当我没有勇气再去面对任何“失去”，我还是用了最后的力量放开你，失去你。我从来也不知道放开一个人的手需要如此巨大的勇气与力量。我仿佛对自己判下了死刑，对自己说了“杀无赦”..

2011-05-18T00:05:00.000+08:00

生日快乐!!! 你听见了吗？[: 其实...你没听见也无所谓。反正，我们是两个最熟悉的陌生人。

但是不管你有没有听见，本小姐还是要祝福你。生日快乐。祝你早日找到那个她，那个能给你明天，给你未来的她 ^.^

2011-05-09T00:50:00.003+08:00

When memories are still so fresh and clear. Is it because I'm not willing to let go of you? Or cause I just can't get over you..

2011-05-07T01:20:00.001+08:00

When your heart is growing cold, think about the 1st encounter you had with Him that made you want to accept Him as your King, your God, your Saviour.

2011-04-30T13:41:00.001+08:00

别傻了。谁都知道白雪公主和白马王子只会出现在童话故事里。天真的你，还奢望给我什么？

2011-04-30T02:40:00.002+08:00

如果一个人必须伤害她最深爱的人只为了证明她喜欢他，那我早已证明了。

2011-04-24T22:17:00.004+08:00

Before the world began, you were on His mind.
Nothing you can do, would make Him close the door.
He gave His only son.
Everything was done so that you would come.
Broken hearts, broken lives, He will take them all.
The power of the Word, the power of His blood,
Everything was done so that you would come.

Give yourself, as well as the Father, a chance for Him to minister Himself to you. He's calling. Even if you run to the corners of the world, He'll still be able to find you. Come to the Father. He's longing for your revival =]

2011-04-21T20:35:00.002+08:00

Good Friday will be here tomorrow and I would like to take this chance to revive a song written by Si Er quite a few years back. And as you read through the lyrics, let the Lord speak to you. Let's not forget His work on the Cross and the price he paid for our sins. This song is called 'Love Of A Saviour'. Enjoy..

Love Of A Saviour

It's on the calendar
The number of years
Since my Saviour was born

It's in the history book
The Man they call Jesus
Walked the earth

Majestic Ruler
Born in a stable
Helplessly crying in the night

King of the Heavens
Lived as a servant
Friend to the sinners
Light in the darkness

This is His story
For mankind
Written in history
For you and me

The love of a Saviour
Spelt in His blood
Spelt in blood

[Chorus]

And the angels were silent
When God Himself
Laid on the cross
For our sins

And the universe trembles
When she saw her creator
Hung by nails
To a tree

Not a saint did He die for
But a wretch like me
His nail-scarred hands
Dripping with love

And the purpose for living
In His dying breath I hear
So soft and clear
Ever more
I'll live for my Saviour

Composer: Zhang Si Er

2011-04-20T22:51:00.002+08:00

I never knew I have tears till that day and today. I've never tried crying twice in less than 5 days. I just ask God, heal the hearts of the brokens. Please.

2011-04-19T23:18:00.003+08:00

I kept blasting songs after songs by my ears. Afraid that when silence finds it's way here, the sound of that monotone heartbeat will start ringing by my ears. Reminding me of that ugly truth, that you're no longer here with me..

2011-04-16T12:28:00.000+08:00

今天，我看到了生命的脆弱。
一转眼间，他可能就会消失。
今天我才终于明白，原来哭泣也需要勇气。
但有时候不是不愿意流泪，只怕眼泪不够。

2011-04-10T22:49:00.000+08:00

奋不顾身的付出，
却只能换取伤痕累累的回报。
继续嘲笑我眼角的变化吧，
反正这是你的杰作...

2011-04-10T03:38:00.003+08:00

因为爱你，所以放手让你自由
因为爱你，所以不再让你捆绕
因为爱你，所以宁愿自己难过
因为爱你，所以逼自己离开...

Happy 25th Birthday Gladys!!

2011-04-10T00:56:00.000+08:00

2011-04-09T01:01:00.000+08:00

I feel so awesome today!! I made a card and a video. And i spent the whole day doing it. Actually not really whole day. Cause I woke up only at 2PM. Taaahaha. And I work on this 2 things from 2.30PM until now.. Just to realise that It's already.. 1.01AM!!!

Worst of all, guess what... I Have yet to BATH!!! Taaaahaha. Kae. I shall stop here and bath now. I stink >.<

2011-04-06T23:30:00.002+08:00

I spent $1616.61 on my laptop.

Laptop----------------------------> $1282.00
Upgrade Ram ------------------> $64.00
Protector for my laptop-------> $72.70
Laptop Bag ----------------------> $17.91
Crumpler Bag for school ------> $180.00

TOTAL--------------------------------> $1616.61

Oh man... Heart pain.. That's super lot of money!!! $____$!

Oh man!!! I just realise I have yet to get my keyboard protector cause it was out of stock when I went there that day.. That's like another... Minimum $15 Max $30 >.< Sadded. Polytechnic sure cost loads of $$..

2011-04-05T23:54:00.003+08:00

I had a long day yesterday. And I woke up super early!!! Like... at around 10am!!! I know it may not be early for most of you out there who are reading this post. But you have to put yourself in the Turtle's shoes. She usually wakes up at 2pm in the AFTERNOON kae!!! That’s like 4 hours earlier >.<

Anyway, since I'm awake so early, there's definitely a reason. I met Randy at Yew Tee NTUC to get eggs. And you know what.. We were like "Oh man!! It's only $1.65!! It's super cheap!!" Then the next thing that caught the Turtle's eyes is $1.45!!! Haha. Yeah.. Budget. So we very Ou-Ba-Sang-ly (Aunty-ly) took the $1.45 eggs and continue with our 'marketing'. In the end, we check out at the cashier with that $1.45Eggs and chocolate toppings. Yeah toppings. So can you guess what are we going to do next?? Eggs and toppings.. Yeah!! Bake cupcakes!!!

You must be wondering "Then where's the flour??" I had flour at home larxh... Haha. LARXH... Haha. Anyway, after that, Randy came to my house to bake. So we did all the measuring and mixing. Then we pour the mixtures into small small "cups" you know those for cupcakes.. Yeah. Then~ While we were happily pouring, we realise "OH NO!!! THERE"S NOT ENOUGH CUPS!!!" And all that we can find in my house is those paper kind of.. I don't know how to explain la. Anyway, it's those that I previously use to make chocolate truffles. And yeah.. So we tried our luck to go down to the 'MaMa shop' opposite my block.

However, sadly, they didn't sell it. And you guess what.. We end up not buying the 'cups' that we needed, but snacks. And it wasn't me. It was Randy. Haha. So, no choice, we went home and tried using the paper thingy. And guess what. It turned out surprisingly nice. Taaahaha.

The next step is of course to pack everything into boxes. Yeah. Who are we packing/baking for?? Obviously is out ‘beloved’ BVSS Choir. You know.. SYF is coming soon.. Yeah. So as WONDERFUL seniors, we decided to be nice and bake for them. Haha. Yes. No doubt, we are good seniors.

And definitely, this time round, the cupcakes are nicer than the previous 2 rounds that I bake… Last week. Anyway, we had loads of fun delivering it to school. We went to collect our cert too!! Yeah. Certificate for 2010 GEO O Level. After collecting, Randy went up to choir room to hear them sing, while the Almighty Turtle went to the staff room to look for her wonderful AhMa!!

As evil as ever, wonderful ahma will get almighty turtle to do things for her in order to be able to enter the staff room to enjoy the cooling air conditional. So I end up helping her stamp her Essential Grammar. *FAINT* But it was fun la. It’s been ages since I last chatted with AhMa.

Of course, Almighty Turtle is also very nice to offer her some of the cupcakes. And guess what was her 1st sentence when she saw the cupcakes.. She said ‘You make one ar?? Can eat or not??’ Faint seh.. Of course can eat la. I know I’m not in F&N but that doesn’t mean I can’t bake. I know if I cook I’ll burn the kitchen down but that doesn’t mean if I bake I’ll burn the house down.. Anyway, yeah. It was really nice. Haha.

Guess what. The next teacher who tried my cupcake was Miss Cheong. YES!!! MICHELLE CHEONG!!! Haha. The she was telling me that day she saw Wei Shan and… She couldn’t remember the other person so I said Xiao Hui?? And guess what was her reply.. She said “ah yay a ya!! How you know?! They together ar?!?!” -.- Faint to the max. Haha. So I was telling her cause AhMa just now got mention to me that she saw Xiao Hui a few days ago.

Anyway, Miss Cheong’s reply/remarks are always so entertaining. Haha. After making my rounds in the staff room, I went back to AhMa’s table. So I was stamping all the Essential Grammar till around 5.30PM. Of course I helped her mark on her class name list, who are the people who have handed in, who have not. And all the bla bla bla. And at 5.30PM, I went back to the Choir Room to accomplish our main mission.

Yep yep. So we gave each of the choir members one each. Oh! I forgot to mention something!! Last Thursday, I texted Jamie and ask her what’s Choir Strength now and she told me around 50. Then Randy and I were like commenting, “Ai ya. They always anyhow say. Every time only got 30 plus then they say 50. Got 40 plus then they say 60..” And guess what.. When we were there, instead of 50, there were like… 52!!!! That’s like 2 more!!! Luckily we baked 60 plus cupcakes. Hmm.. Minus off those eaten by the teachers, there were still extras. But my ‘Wonderful’ Choir juniors said ‘Very nice! Can I have one more??” and yep. They ate finish EVERYTHING!!! YES!! EVERYTHING!! Haha. K la. At least that proves that my cupcakes are edible ^_^

2011-04-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

快６个月了eh。你到底在哪里？

2011-03-24T14:48:00.001+08:00

只不过是三个字，只要你说出口，你就能拥有我 ^_^

2011-03-18T00:55:00.001+08:00

Each morning I open my eyes and see the sun shining brightly at my face, the 1st thought that came to my mind was 'Finally the night is over'. But when the sky is at its brightest, it just hinted to me that the night is soon falling in >.<

2011-03-16T17:49:00.004+08:00

How could you just rob my heart away like that and left me by the streets crying like a helpless child. If I would just say 'please', would you return my heart back to me? Please..

2011-03-13T02:48:00.003+08:00

Read it if you can. All the best. By the way, no doubt, it's Chinese Han Yu Ping Yin. Jia you ^_^

tinglinjunjiede'wohaixiangta'shi,wochangchanghuixiangqita.
nagewoyongyuanyewangbuliaodenageta.wocengjinghenguoziji.
henzijiweishenmeyaogenniduqi.henzijiweishenmemeigennishuo
qingchuzijixindizhenzhengdeganshou.yexuruguoshiguangdaozhuan,
wohuizailikaizhiqianzaicigennishuowoxihuanni.zhende.

haijidenatianwocongnibeihouyongbaoni,laoshishuo,buzhinixiadao,
lianwozijiyexiadao.wobutingdewenziji,nalaideyongqi?woyongyuanyebuhuiwangjinatianbaozhunideganjue.dangran,
yebuhuiwangjinatianzainierbianshuodesigezi,woxihuanni.
yinweiwoshizhenxinde.yexuniyongyuanyebuhuixiangxin.
danwozhendecengjingzhendeyouzhenxinxihuanni.

yexuxianzaigennishuozhexieyijingmeiyoushenmeyiyile.
danwohaishiyaoxiexieni.xiexienigeiwonameduodehuiyi.
xiexienicengjingzaiwoshenmingzhongbanyanguoyigehenzhongyaode
jiaose.xiexienirangwonenggoutihuidaozhenxinxihuanyigerende
ganshou.bijingnishiwodiyigexihuanshangdenanren.bijingwoceng
jingduinizhenxinguo.shuowangji,woxiang..yemeinamerongyiba.

ruguoniduidedongwoyishangshuodehua,meicuo,
woshuodejiushinihongjunxuan.yinweini,suoyiwo :]
《哪怕只有一秒》songgeni.

《哪怕只有一秒》

词/曲：Almighty Turtle

不断地寻找你的身影
只为了领悟你的离去
记得我刚刚才看见你
下一秒你却消失无影

我说过自己永不放手
你却趁我没有注意时
不说一句的离我而去
我记得我还没说再见

如果你听到我的心碎
如果你能感受我的痛
如果你能听到我的心
安静的呐喊：我喜欢你

当这个世界否对着你
听我说：别害怕，还有我
就算你不相信，我不怕
我想再次的拥抱着你
哪怕只有一秒，我愿意
我想再次说：我喜欢你

就算着全世界都反对
我也要喜欢你到永远
我不在乎永远有多远
只要是为了你我愿意

就算你早已不再爱我
我对你的爱从没停过
能不能让我厚着脸皮
再次对你说：我喜欢你

如果你听到我的心碎
如果你能感受我的痛
如果你能听到我的心
安静的呐喊：我喜欢你

当这个世界否对着你
听我说：别害怕，还有我
就算你不相信，我不怕
我想再次的拥抱着你
哪怕只有一秒，我愿意
我想再次说：我喜欢你
哪怕只有一秒..

借口 Cover - Almighty Turtle

2011-03-07T21:49:00.000+08:00

Mama, this is for you. Hope you like it. Okay.. Listen to the song. Don't look at my face. I feel damn weird. And I've yet to listen to it myself. Haha. Oh. Comment on youtube if you want. And remember to stop the music in my Music playbox. Just scroll all the way down. Hope you'll like it :] This is also for Jan Jan ^_^

围墙

2011-03-06T20:22:00.000+08:00

This song reminds me of you. 送给那个"你"..

2011-02-23T13:54:00.001+08:00

其实我早已决定把我的心交给你，只是忘了跟你说而已。

2011-02-14T14:00:00.001+08:00

《哪怕只有一秒》

不断地寻找你的身影
只为了领悟你的离去
记得我刚刚才看见你
下一秒你却消失无影

我说过自己永不放手
你却趁我没有注意时
不说一句的离我而去
我记得我还没说再见

就算着全世界都反对
我也要喜欢你到永远
我不在乎永远有多远
只要是为了你我愿意

就算你早已不再爱我
我对你的爱从没停过
能不能让我厚着脸皮
再次对你说：我喜欢你

2011-02-09T00:27:00.001+08:00

What a joke sia. I wanted Chinese Media & Communication, I can't get in. Posted to Integrated Events & Project Management. The I appeal to Dental Hygiene & Therapy. Then I regret but too late to withdraw. Hope that they reject my appeal, yet they accepted. Joke. Haiz. Can't help. Just accpet it and.. Move on. Yep yep. See you in NYP!!

2011-01-29T01:25:00.005+08:00

It's amazing how difficult and tiring it can be to "download" 4 songs' melody in the shortest possible time but yet when you remember who you are called to be, it's worth it.

Everyone is tired. But yet I found strength in Him ^_^

Andy say: Let not the songs, that you use to worship God, be the songs that you worship.

2011-01-28T23:45:00.001+08:00

There seem to be countless things that I wanted to say. Yet, I don't know where to begin..

2011-01-18T15:11:00.000+08:00

那天..我问你..如果你想起我，你会想到什么？” 今天，我突然发现，你还没回答我。

如果你想起我，你会想到什么...

2011-01-02T00:38:00.001+08:00

Listen, not with your ear. But with your heart..

2010-12-31T23:59:00.001+08:00

删除所有跟你有关的回忆。包括你发给我的每一封简讯，你的FACEBOOK。当然，也包括你的联络号码。

所有属于我和你的2010年的回忆，没有任何一点会陪我跨年。从此以后，我们就只是两个最熟悉的陌生人而已。就这么简单。

2010-12-31T23:00:00.000+08:00

In the last hour of 2010, what are you doing?

I'm refreshing every single scenes of you in my memory. With this last hour, smiles, tears and all emotions will come to an end. 2011, a new year, it's awaiting for a new me. A Venus that no one has ever knew.

No judgement, no comment, she just want to be who she really is. A masked turtle. She's just protecting herself. What's wrong with that. You, who had once hurt her. What rights do you have to criticize her?

She's a turtle. An over turned one. A retarded one. A blonde one. Weird, yet as unique as a fingerprint. Almighty, cause she overcome 2010, by the Grace of the Lord..

2010-12-26T23:00:00.004+08:00

2010 is coming to an end in another 121 more hours. Treasure this last 121 hours and tell your love ones how much you love them. I'll cherish this last 121 hours and reflecting on my Almighty 2010. Hope it will be up by 31st Dec 2010, 235959 :]

2010-12-22T22:42:00.001+08:00

报复有很多方式。如果连让他恨你都能让他无时无刻想起你，那也是一种折磨人的报复方式。

Isn't it amazing to make a person, who hates you, think of you every second?? Come to think of it, not everyone can think of the person, that they love, every second. What more a person you hate?? Ironic.

2010-12-11T10:30:00.006+08:00

照片是能让瞬间变成永恒的唯一魔法。也许你不会相信，但你曾经真的有让我真正的快乐过。那些回忆是我最珍贵，最珍惜的。真的..

谢谢你给我这些回忆。至少有这些照片可以证明我曾经真的有遇见过你，可以证明你曾经真的有参与我的人生，这一切都不是一场梦。那就够了。

2010-11-19T03:53:00.000+08:00

Every night when sky is getting darker, the fear in me grew. I felt I've lost myself in the darkness and I can't help but ask 'Who Am I???'

2010-11-17T03:56:00.002+08:00

You promised me that you'll be there when I need you. But where are you now?? When I beg you to stay, you left. So what rights do you have to beg me now?? Don't question me if my heart was present. What rights do you have??

I'm hurt. I'm torn. Yet i'm not given the simplest right to shed a tear.

HiHD-你為什麼說謊-叮噹

2010-11-16T15:27:00.000+08:00